12- 12 - 2009·

hurraayyy。。。
is 5.55am now..
gud morning to mYselF..
yes..im havev't slip yet..
muahaha..im suck blood juz now..

ytd i said i will write another blog..but..i din't..
not bcoz im slip..
im sooo free..
but im emo ytd i think..
yeepi..im a super DAMN EMO girl..thank you..
every 1 hv emo feeling.,rite..
i juz over a bit la..k?but still in control..

ytd..i was in a damn sad + unhapi + emo feeling..
huh??dun even ask me y..
bcoz even myself oso wats the hell hapen to me..
juz..
very down..
i can't fall slip of cux..
den i play fb..msn..but i din blog..
i was lazy to type ytd..
ytd..msn..many ppl kena scold by me..
even sm i dun no dem act..
dey juz say hi..den i start..bla bla bla..$@#(
i used very rude to them..
kaka..IM REALLY SORRY
sm of dem..i ask dem to hell la..
n sm kena spam by me..
n sm..kena block by me..
hulala...~~
yes!!dis is me!!ng meng chin!!
i do lik to ask ppl

*GO TO HELL LA!!

*CAN U PLZ JUZ FUCK OFF!!

*SPAM FRM MY WORLD PLZ!!

*WTH!!Y HV SM IDIOT BUSTARD!!

hurrayy...i do lik use dis few sentences..
maybe u think im rude..
no false..im a rude gal..so how?
wat u can do..?
u bo song..den juz spam frm my world..i will say thanks to u..
i dosen't reali ned a fren..
i dosen't reali ned sm body to sayang..
im been single 4 a long long time jor..
so tats not a problem 4 me..
i can do everyrting myself..
i can do it by my self..
im not longer a little gal..
im growth..

wanna know what love is..?
is dosen't a important thing 4 me any+
i enjoy my single life..
i no nid manja manja..
i no nid care who hell feeling..
i juz do everithing im lik..
wat even i thing..den i juz nike..?
nike..?yes...nike..juz do it..
muahaha..

although sm tim i sim mou ppl
but..i always comfort myself..
telling myself..
plz study well..
dis is wat u nid 4 now..4 dis moment..
love..juz a game to hell..
love = hell
yes..im scare to be in love again..
im scare..
even smtim damn hapi..
but when sad..
n getting hurt..huh!!now think oso feel wanna cry..
bitch!!vbustard!!idiot!!
plz serious in love..
its not a game la pleasee..
if u tink it was juz a game..
den go bec hm..shake ur mother up..
n ask her to slap u plz..

omg..i think bout my ex again..
my mood getting low..
n my tears..is ready!!
wtf la me..plz la ng meng chin..

ytd..i call my sis..
i ask her to help me tell my guitar teacher tat i wanna stop 4 a month..
i feel wanna cry when i get her reply..
she say..u don be so teapot la...
i tell her im arm chun..i nid her to help me 4 inform him..
haha.i was cry in the nite..
even she not scolding me..
n the end she help me oso..
but i dun noe why im cry 4 dis oso..
im nid ppl help..
i not lik u..so geng..u so clever..
i cant compare v u at all..even study ..
im juz a useless ppl in dis family i think..
smtim..
i reali feel im very useless..
i can't help anyting at all..
i juz use their money..
make dem worry..
wat else?nth else i can do..

my mom hope im can study in university..
tats y she consult me to study form 6..
i 4low wat she wan..
i wan her hapi..
n i can take care her 4 1 more year and accompany her..
but university..?im sorry la..
im won think tat i can go 4 it la plz..
im a stupid gal ok..
i was very stress..u all know bout it..?
donno..nobody noe wat im think ..
i always cry..coz im reali stress..
may smbody listen to me..
listen to me tat wat i wan..?
i reali veri unhapi!!!!
im sad!!
im stress!!!
i dun reali nid money..
i dun reali nid hp..camera..laptop or bla bla bla..
i juz wan care frm u all..
can u all plz listen to me..?
listen to wat my mind was thinking?

i reali love u all ok..?
even everytim i act lik not respect u all..
n talking rude to u all..
n chat v u all lik fren..
i noe..ur fren ask u..y u can accept ur daughter lik tat..
boh dua bo seh..
do u noe im was crying tat nite ..?
im not wan boh dua bo seh v u all..
but dis is the way our family talk..izn't?
since im growth..v talk lik dis..
den y now juz u blame..?
huh!!!

mummy & daddy was older and older..
wat i can do??!!
i hope dey won wori 4 money everiday..
i noe they r in trouble..
but wat i can do..?
i was try very hard to study well...ok?
dun u all tink im always juz play play..k?

jie..
i noe u always unhapi too..
everi month salary all giv to mum dem..
huh..do u noe..u r heroin 4 me
who else will giv all their salary to family when she wan already 25 years old..
u always alone dere...
do u noe y sm tim i hug u..?
i dun noe y..
ifeel worm when im hug u all..
i feel hapi..and comfort..
i feel im getting care..
i not wanna kacau u..but u always think so..

huh..
i was crying now..
feel wanna scream ...
sm tim i imagine..if 1 of u all death..?
how ?
i will cry lik crazy..
i will be crazy..
smtim..even i juz imagine..i oso cry..
i scare to lost u all..

i love u all..