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4 those who read my older post..
u all noe who i talking about la rite..haha
tell u..u say u din read..
i juz dun understand wat kind of fren u r

slap me gao gao plz...
i again n again giving myself dis n tat excuse..
n not concentrate on my revison..
i do need som motivation
haha~~~

ng meng chin
5 day left..
n ur trial stpm is cuming...!!!
plz dun act someting foolsh else..
u can freaking play facebook until u dead or faint right aft ur stpm...
yes...tis is wat i hv to tell myself
paise..
i like to talk to myself...
its my habit..

juz now one of my bff..
SHINYHI TEH...
SHE TOLD ME DIS>>>>
" the most efficient way: keep urself away from Facebook, drink Brands or Redbull (to make urself awake), have a good rest and start studying!!
then u wont have any excuses that u couldnt memorize all those stuffss..hehe!!
I bet it definitely works!!
Go try it out!
NOW!!
dont be slack babe, STPM is once in ur life time, im sure that u dont wish to get a bad result, do U? "

she slap me gao gao..my mind i means..
haha...thx 4 the motivation..reali..
yes!!i dunwan to get a bad result..
i dun wan to make myself disapointed n regret...
but....
haha....
anyway..i promise..i will try my best...

mr zhao...plz dun date v me anymore..
u make me dalay n delay my time to study..
haha....

title needed...

aloha...
imma bec to my blog again..
sorry..imma neglecting u for so long tim..
sorry my bloggie
but act i love to blog still...
ju i hv no tim kep on update it everyday..

i LOVE blog:
*i could write anyting i wan to write..
*i could talk as much as i can
*i could scold anyone i wanna scold
*i could release my feeling as well
*i could use the rude world sumting lik fuck
*i could be lik nobody business...

muahaha...if u tink imma a rude gal..
yes i am...you can juz please end dis post n press the "X" upside there..
i din get any comision from blogger..
n i dun nid anyone to read my blog act
if here oso i can'y speak out all i want to say..
so..u r drive me to crazy then...

dis post...hmmm..no aim act..but i still bla bla bla to tell...
"THE POWER OF THE FACEBOOK"
its lik yeah..
it can spread any news in asap la wey..
u juz post..ppl sms u..
wao..its sumting lik...wao..
u r so fast...
sumtim..juz feeling lik privacy free ..
hmmm....

~~~~end~~~~~~

kinda emo again recentli..
sum1 talk to..?
i nid sum1 to talk to me..
i feel so stress..

recentli...
juz wanna say to my fren..
siapa makan cili dialah terasa pedas ya...
damn!!!!u study at home n u dun allow me to study pula..!!!
wtf is this the ting call fren..?
u got study say u got la..
wtf u gonna lie me say u r not..
a piece of shit la u!!!
deng!!!!
if u treat me as real fren..
u should adk me to gambateh together..
u shoul be the one persuade me to study
BUT NOT LIKE YOU!!!!!
kep on tell me ..
no nid study 1 la n bla bla bla...but kep study in hom...
wat u want..u wan to be better than me..

THANKS GOD TAT HAVE THIS KIND OF FREN LIK YOU...!!!!

u noe....
u r proving to me..
u r my enermy as well..

huh....~~~calm down..i gotta to write many lagi..
so..control my mood..
i dunwan a emo post again..
its kina emo..n ppl kep asking me..
y i be so negatif thinking....


imma not ok..imma prs la wey...
n the most important..
imma ng meng chin la wey..
the gal v specific "POWER"
muahaha...

trial is on the way d la weyyy~~~~

weyy....wat the date today..hmmm..?
yea..is 13 of july for year 2010...
hello...?when is ur trial stpm..hmmm?
yea..is cuming ..
so wats the date...
its 16 of august..4 sure..
haha....
so..
wat imma still doing..?
motivation is needed again plz...
wat is hapen...
laziness..plz go far far away frm me..
mr zhao gong ..plz stay away frm me..
i dun wanna met u every afternoon plz..
is tim 4 m to start revision..
although its too late..
but is a good beginning okie..?

ok...spam....
my muet result was bad lik shit..
clap...thank you..
is giv RM60 to retake dis ccb test again...
ppd..imma ur boss..i giv u the money..so make sure giv me the band i want!!!
the result was make me disapointed ..n its was shit lik hell lik nobody business..
mother fucxer.....
is discuss v my muet teacher..mr shan..dis morning..
n ytd oso act..
bii bla bla bla...
he ask me..
how much effrt u put on it..
ok..i spechless..haha

he go out..n i start copy fren's work again...
today 3 homework have to rush..
where got tim 4 study o..?
...........

~~~~~me♥sleeping～～···
agin...凸..4 u ppd n muet...

长大了烦恼了

刚才看了朋友的部落格
他是一个既神秘的人
哈哈～～他总是有种无法理解的神秘
他把所有的一切一切都藏在心里
也许知道他秘密的人只有那几个
最知道的应该就是他自己
觉得自己跟他有一个共同点
就是
把秘密都只告诉了自己

还有的就是
对前途的茫然与渺茫

从他的部落格：
"突然对我的前途好渺茫~好害怕自己给不到自己美好的未来！虽然尽了力，努力了好久好久，但觉得还是一无所有...现在给自己的压力越来越沉重，好害怕上不到大学！上得了大学，以后又能做什么~不想给自己酱大的压力，但“未来”这个问题我还是会一直思考，没目标的思考！haiz~"

心里顿时觉得
ei同感哦～
呵呵
他说的好对哦

压力
一种莫名的压力
无法理解的压力
也无法解决的压力
压抑在心中
哪怕有一天压抑到死去
==

能不能不去想，能不能不要长大.
回到过去
我宁愿停留在当兵的时候
辛苦是辛苦
但至少不用去烦前途未来什么的

一个人长大了
脑子变大了
想的东西越来越多了
压力越来越大了
烦恼越来越多了

压抑的心情越来越沉重了

♥ ♥ end ♥ ♥

对不起，我不再等你了

对不起，我不再等你了
我在也不会发只有“在干嘛”的三字的短信了，不会在打扰你的生活了

对不起，我不再等你了
我不会在早上醒来看看手机，有没有你发的信息

对不起，我不再等你了
你的空间少了我脚印，因为我不在意你的一举一动了

对不起，我不再等你了
不会再翻着你发给我的短信，因为已经全部删掉了

对不起，我不再等你了
我不会在睡前紧握手机只为等你那一句晚安

对不起，我不再等你了
我不会再翻着关于你的照片，不再在意你现在过得好不好

对不起，我不再等你了
我不再在意现在的你有没有闹脾气

对不起，我不再等你了
不再因为你情绪影响到我

对不起，我不再等你了
我不会打电话给你，只想告诉你，我很想你。

对不起，我不再等你了
不会因为你一句话，死心踏地去做某事。

对不起，我不再等你了
看到你闪亮的msn头像，不会再徘徊是否要say hi

对不起，我不再等你了
看到手机里，你的名字，不会再犹豫是否要删掉

对不起，我不再等你了
想起过去的点滴，我会适可而止，不会再偷偷落泪

对不起，我不再等你了
不管你和他是合是离，都与我无关

对不起，我不再等你了
在街上看见你不是一个人，我也不会委屈自己绕道

对不起，我不再等你了
看到你的讯息，我不会再放下手边的事情，只为不让你等太久

对不起，我不再等你了
一份需要徘徊的爱情，是不会长久的

对不起，我不再等你了
我现在才知道，回忆始终是回忆，我不会给你第二次的放弃我的机会

对不起，我不再等你了
即使在孤单的时候，我也可以一个人

若生命只到这里，从此没有我 ......

放下了吗？

well..juz finish chating v smone special in my life..
n thanks a lot..
tat makes me cry lik shit
n make my eyes now red lik damn..
n make my mood deeply deeply down..
n makes me feel lik urghhhhh!!!!!!!

once upon a time..
u playing a very important role in my life..but
once upon a time ...
u make me felt into the hell..
actuali..
im not blaming..
but thank you..sentences frm deep of my heart...

在朋友面前我都倔强的假装我很好
嘴里说的放下
真的做到了吗

接起你的电话
心痛的感觉
却是如此的缠着我不放
难耐的心情
过往的点点滴滴
你又何必一一提起
把我脑海塞满了你我的回忆

澎湃的泪
已都不能忍耐
电话一盖

哗啦啦啦啦 下雨了
眼泪即使变得那么的澎湃···？
我想是时侯改用water prof的电话了
因为一面哭一面讲电话
电话会进水的咯

明明不是放下了吗···？
怎么···
怎么回事了
不是把你完完全全放下了吗？

以前对你已不屑的我呢

痛了,你自然会放下了～～

有个苦者找到一个和尚倾诉他的心事





苦者说：“我放不下一些事，放不下一些人”



和尚说：“没有什么东西是放不下的



苦者说：这些事和人我就偏偏放不下”



和尚让他拿着一个茶杯，

然后就往里面倒热水 一直倒到水溢出来。



苦者被烫到马上松开了手。



和尚说：“这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，



痛了，你自然就会放下。



呵呵···
但是有一些人
虽然过了好久好久
也许对方已经忘掉自己是谁
他也依然的还放不下
还是自己依然的沉醉在当局中
依然在回味过往的点点滴滴

有一些事情
过去就是过去了
不是自己不去遗忘
而是自己遗忘不来

~~end with tears~~


p/s:我发现自己每当用华语来写部落格
自己就会变得好感性
哈哈
而且也很犹豫沮丧

因为自己任性的话语；把一切都变成了回忆

今天我要用华语写我的部落格~~
呼啦啦～～喂汪汪～～
haha..wee wang wang n hulala in chinese form..
don ask me wat dis two sentences means..
i duno how to explain as well..
but juz eim..lik a sound..

因为自己任性的话语 ； 把一切都换成了回忆
想起以往许多的点点滴滴
却只因为我的一时任性
把以往的甜蜜都一手抹净
把一切变成了回忆
剩下自己与泪滴

nanana...dun go away..
be right back soon..
gotta go out d..
so pause dis blog..haha

我回来了···不是那个谁··


这几天的心情总是蓝蓝的
很低落很沉闷的心情
想找人谈谈但是~~
却发现要找个人来谈谈都难
自己连一个谈心的朋友都没有
最近已经不想去讲话，
觉得很累很累
很现实的世界你没了就是没了
你是熟了就是输了
无法改变；也改变不了
有时我们不是不去改变；而是我们根本改变不了

不好意识‘这将会是个很emo的部落格
呵呵

晚间的哭泣只是为了明早的欢笑
我每次强忍眼泪不哭
因为一旦我哭就会哭很久
许多不开心的东西都压抑在心里
因为不知道谁可以让自己哭诉
也不知道自己是怎么一回事
所以~~~
haiyo我自己也不知道该怎么去形容
小时候的我总希望自己快快长大，可以做些大人做的东西
长大后我朝希望回到以前小时候，没有像大人版的烦恼了
我其实要说的是
我的心情真的很很很很低落

回想一下
我也真的冻结好久了
其实好多次都怀疑自己有点心理变态
哈哈哈
我很抗拒一些对我太好的人
因为我会变得很依赖
所以每当一个人对我好
我就会想逃避

我是一个超级依赖的人类
就像一些事情其实自己可以做得来
但是我只要知道身边的人可以做到
我就会依赖病发作
好像什么都不会似的一般

所以我就逃避
只是为了避免当我失去你
我会崩溃
一些会做的事情都变得不会了


To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time
Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
you know I really really do
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
There were tears on our faces
Why do we never know what we've got till it's gone
How could I carry on
Cause I've been missing you so much I have to say

orang sudah tua..mesin dah rosak~~

wao...
i juz bec frm bbQ...
its a celebration of sheau li's bufday..
im kinda tired now..
i tak boleh guna dah..
tua sudah..
tulang pun dah sakit..
my backbone..recentli..its bec..
its damn pain till wat my granfather surname i oso dunno d..
i dunno why will hapen dis..
why the pain is bec...?
hmmmm...nvm...nothing i can do..
i juz tahan..n tahan..
i not going to tell my parents as well..
coz they won border me...or else juz ask me to clinic

its juz a common pain smting lik pms..
hahaha..wat a gud description..?
i can tahan lagi la..
but the backbone..haizt..
act is reali damn pain ..
lagipun juznow "mao"zhu bbQ..my godness..its damn pain..
so truthly..im not enjoy the nite..
bcoz the bone is make me moody n moody..
but i still act im enjoy...
haha..tats me..
i will juz try to show my happy n enjoy fce..
although it wasn't a truth..
bcoz i noe once my blace face show..
i will spoilt others feeling n mood..
so juz keep it^^

although im a hot temper gal..
although i am a angin gal..
although i am a reali bad temper gal..
but im actuali trying to not show it in front of u ppl..
i try to control myself..
but many times i fail act..
im apologize gao gao bout dis..
especially 4 those who mix me long long tim jor geh..
n 4 sure my family members too^^
haha..thx 4 pardon Prominent language which hurt ..
but i love u all actuali..deep from my heart..

~~end v love~~

wee wang wang~~~again

Wee wang wang ~~~
Im bec finally~~
Hulala~~
Im enjoying v my holiday..huraYY!!
Say congratulation to me plz..haha…
Is time to relax myself as well…
Im not LAZY
But im human being..i need to rest of cux..haha..
Im not the wife of iron man..
So im not iron gal..
Haha…
Agin to say tat I hv not bloging 4 few century
Im damn buzy ok..
No choice tats the life of a form 6 student
haha...although is holiday but hell lots homework are waiting 4 me..


well gotta finished them in 2 day times i swear..
i wanna enjoy myself aft dis saturday until the skul reopen
the door of jail is gonna be reopen soon~~
so..i gotta be rush to enjoy it!!!

hell lots ting i wannaa to blog..although is some old case

well..tats smting to remind u all walk properly n becareful all the tim..
aren't ..u will geet smmting lik dis

haha...wat a good memory..
n thx 4 dis gave me 3 days mc as well

c..mc frm hospital kementrian..
tell u..is my 1st tim at hospital kementrian..
i never go ther b4..
so i damn excited when i paying RM1 4 the cure..
i was yelling there..wao..coz its chea lik hell..

haha...dis is hapen few month ago la act..
n now my leg still fair lik taofu..phew~~

ladies n gentleman..~~~
plz welcum the new member in my family..
its named gal gal..
wat a classic name..
but shhe lik it my mum lik it n my dad lik it..so..



she r destroyer..she r wicked dogshe alwaz make People love and affection
my parents talk with her more than talk v me..
tell u..smtim i jealous bout her..even she r my dog..
my mum always feed her eat meat..
haha..how long tim my mum never feed me d..hmmm
she r manja queen..
she muz slip bside my parents everynite..
my god...

nowadays..
im thinking smting serious 4 my future..
tat make me feel stress ..huh
im tinking..
if i fail to get entre to local universiti..
how disapointed my parents will..?
how dissapointed my sis n bro will..?
how dissaointed of myself..?
how many time i wasted..?
how to face those aunty n uncle..?
how to treat my relatives...?
wat to do 4 my future..?
enter private colledge..?
i noe its a best way..
but money$$$$ needed k...
so..i reali mus try my very hard ..i noe tis
i muz try to get enter local universiti..
i dun wanna make my family members dissapointed...
tats all..
i will try ok..?i promise dis..
but hv to said tat..its a mission imposible act..
its a hard job 4 me..my god...

but promise..i will try my best..
i oso wish to do so...

每个父母都望子成龙，望女成鳳
身为儿女并不是要让你们失望
只是有时我们真的有心却无力
但是我们都在努力的打拼
秦你们给我们一点点鼓励
别让我们一直受到打击
我们娱乐自己只是为了让压力全息
并不是像你们想象我们不是不努力

end with stress..
gotta start doing homework